Well where do I start? This is my first blog but I have tried this before and it never worked. A little about me to start shall we? I am 27, married with 3 kids. My son just turned 5 a step-daughter who is 5 (long story, another blog) and my baby boy is 1. I have been with my wife for 5 years on and off and december will be married 4 years! I am in the military and the 28th marked 10 years for me.....god im old. I guess I am just doing this cause I am sitting here at work, its 4am and well...........im not allowed to sleep. There is alot on my mind and I hope to fill up pages and pages of it while I am here just not all in one night. I will try and figure out something tonight though. My wife said I dont talk enough to her and I am distant sometimes even though I dont notice this. We are so great together sometimes but other times I am just not so sure. We fight a little more than I would like or what I deem normal and sometimes I am at fault but she never wants to take the blame for anything. Everything has to be turned against me. Dont get me wrong I am never going to say I am a saint but always? I think she needs to step back and take a big look at things too. Maybe we both do. I know I am an asshole at times but not always! She can never admit she is in the wrong or its her fault. Im sorry I get mad at times about "stupid" stuff. Money, her getting a job, a dirty house! She stays at home with the kids all day and one of them is in school yet she can never find the time anymore to keep the house clean. I have tried to help out but when I do I get yelled at for doing it. Dont scream at me or get mad cause I was bored and wanted to put the cloths away or cook dinner. Just say thank you dear and be happy I want to help out. I just wish she would be a little like she used to be and maybe I would be a little more open and talkative to her. I cant do that now because if I say the wrong thing it will start a fight. It just seems like no matter what I do I am wrong and I dont know how to fix this. How can I make her happy without making myself unhappy? Well I guess I have to do that stupid work thing again so I will blog everyone later. Please comment and save me cause I promise to keep you up to date on everything and its gonna be a long, great read ppl.
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Goat
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Hey Goat... I'm new to this blogging thing.. Thanks for visiting me at The CrankyBytch Chronicles - As for you wife - I do understand somewhat the things you are expressing..
Life is too short for unhappiness... Trust me relationships take hard work + GOD included to help us from going insane.
TALK TO HER - NOT AT HER - If that doesnt work get COUNSELING ( I have heard it works for people - some people anyway!!!)
I think blogging will help you feel a little less pressure/stress - blogging is like journaling... Trust me you arent alone in what you are feeling - we all have been there or are going through it.
STAY STRONG AND FOCUSED!!!
The CrankyBytch :^)
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